~ Broken smile ~
Its been quite a while that I went away
and I've come back with unexpected news.
Rain was pouring down heavily outside.
It's definitely perfect time snuggling under
the blanket and sleep. But the chest's pain
doesn't give me any comfort. As I was lying on
my bed staring blankly at the ceiling, suddenly
my mind's starts to wander far. My mind's filled
with questions. Why this? Why that? My mind's
recall all the old memories. The memories that
is definitely irreplaceable. As it got me thinking,
tears come streaming down my face. I've lose
something that I can't never replace. My only
grandfather had just passed away on 14 May.
It really breaking me down. Indeed I'm
seriously in deep grief. Its hard to handle
the truth that he has gone forever.
Sometimes, these periods can often be a
great teacher for us. It's understood and
owned. In any engagement with death, our loves
ones especially, it gave us the opportunities to
deeply examine our lives, to explore what we
have done and not done and to decide what we
wish to do in future. We got the opportunity to
revised or alter the path have taken to take
new choices, to begin a new.
As event of our life is essential, I guess we should
make full use out of it. Cherish the times and
value of what we owned either towards our
loved ones, parents especially, family's and friends.
Treasure every seconds with them cause things
in life is unpredictable and you can't afford to
bear the pain once you lose what you have.
And it is when, you feel regret all your life.
Oh god, please give me strength.
I tried to wiped my tears away.
I told myself that I can do it.
But then again, my forte is lying to myself.
"To my dearest late grandfather, I'll
prayed for you. May you rest in peace.
Semoga roh-mu ditempatkan dengan
orang-orang yang beriman. Amin.
Al-fateha."
Its been quite a while that I went away
and I've come back with unexpected news.
Rain was pouring down heavily outside.
It's definitely perfect time snuggling under
the blanket and sleep. But the chest's pain
doesn't give me any comfort. As I was lying on
my bed staring blankly at the ceiling, suddenly
my mind's starts to wander far. My mind's filled
with questions. Why this? Why that? My mind's
recall all the old memories. The memories that
is definitely irreplaceable. As it got me thinking,
tears come streaming down my face. I've lose
something that I can't never replace. My only
grandfather had just passed away on 14 May.
It really breaking me down. Indeed I'm
seriously in deep grief. Its hard to handle
the truth that he has gone forever.
Sometimes, these periods can often be a
great teacher for us. It's understood and
owned. In any engagement with death, our loves
ones especially, it gave us the opportunities to
deeply examine our lives, to explore what we
have done and not done and to decide what we
wish to do in future. We got the opportunity to
revised or alter the path have taken to take
new choices, to begin a new.
As event of our life is essential, I guess we should
make full use out of it. Cherish the times and
value of what we owned either towards our
loved ones, parents especially, family's and friends.
Treasure every seconds with them cause things
in life is unpredictable and you can't afford to
bear the pain once you lose what you have.
And it is when, you feel regret all your life.
Oh god, please give me strength.
I tried to wiped my tears away.
I told myself that I can do it.
But then again, my forte is lying to myself.
"To my dearest late grandfather, I'll
prayed for you. May you rest in peace.
Semoga roh-mu ditempatkan dengan
orang-orang yang beriman. Amin.
Al-fateha."